Some things people have said about their self-esteem
If I have done something well, it is like there is a wee voice in my head that says 'and who do you think you are'. I can't take a compliment. I think 'if only you knew what I am really like'. I tear such strips off myself. I would not talk to any other person like I talk to myself.
I go on and on at my husband to tell me that I look OK if we are out. I do it so much, he gets angry. Yet I still ask. It's better when he is there. When I pick the wee one up at school on my own, I make sure I don't get there until the bell rings so I don't have to talk to the other parents waiting at the gate.
I feel so bad about myself. My self esteem and confidence are down the tube. I know I have 101 things to do but nothing ever gets done these days. I feel I am letting them all down. I can't give myself credit for anything.
If I walk down the street or I am in a club, I think people look at me. I think they are thinking that I am ugly or stupid or weird or that I don't fit in here. I think they are looking down on me. I become really aware of myself. And then it affects the way I walk as I am so tense. My whole face freezes and that affects the way I talk. If two people are nearby, I'm worried that they are talking about me.
I just go along with people all the time. I can disagree with what someone tells me yet all I do is nod my head and don't say a word. I want to put over my own views but I can't. I can't stand up for myself at all.
I hate to see my boyfriend talking to a good looking girl. If they are laughing, I feel like dying. I feel like this even if he talks to my best friend. I go off my head at him as soon as we get out. If he goes for a night out, I bombard him with questions. I try to catch him out. I check his clothes. I go through his wallet. I even check the numbers on his mobile phone. I know he is sick to death of it but I can't stop. I don't know why he stays.
